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I know that my father has my life  prearranged.
But I want to leave the castle. I have to let him know that it’s time for me to live my own life.
I want to see what is in the world…and the walls of his protection need to be removed first.
He has taught me about the wolves…and the cayotes…and how they love to destroy all that is innocent…and beautiful.


I think Daddy…that I will stay out of the  forest for now. I think instead..that I will go to the ocean.
It’s there that I feel at home….
Because you taught me to trust you when we surfed in that ocean..and the waves tossed me…to the point that I almost drowned.
But your strong arms grabbed me..and brought me to my rightful place…so that my lungs could once again fill with air…
It was at this time I was quite shocked I could not breathe like the sea creatures…and I knew of their superiority…


Sleeping at night…listening to the surf…when I awoke at my usual time of 3Am…the ocean was awake with me always.
Later I learned to surf those waves…and at once…I felt its great hand pick me up and carry me…
trusting in its power….I felt at that time..we were equals.


Is it such a coincidence I was born in the sign of water?
but on the cusp of a fire sign…
And such has this ruled my life….
I know Daddy..you don’t like astrology…but you cannot deny the irony…


I know that my romantic tendencies…were taught to me by the water…
I will forever feel possessive of the ocean…thinking that it belongs to me only…
And I need to remember it must be shared by all.
But I just cant help it….
I do not like to share the things I love.
But like a child…I am learning to do this.


All bodies of water fascinate me…
But It is the Fire who will destroy me…
so is it any wonder.. the water quenches that?
I know Daddy that you worry about me…but you should not….
I may seem sad sometimes…in my life..in my far away expression….
but it’s because I like to keep a little bit of sadness…
as a momento …